I just finally wanted to tell someone thst he's hit me before. I ALWAYS covered it up . . . of the dog head butted me screwing around . . . . etc etc. I just wanted to have it out. I just wanted the truth to be known . . . then maybe if I even think of letting him back you all will tell me I'm being a freakin idiot.
I have to start telling the whole truth somewhere. I figured I'd start here and slowly work out to my friends and family.
Now that it's over . . . and no one will hate for staying with him (as it's not an option) I feel that I am to tell people the whole truth about our relationship.
When it first started (Novemeber of 2003) I tried to reach out to some people and they just blew me off with things like, "Kevin would never do that . . " etc. I guess I should have went to them when the bruises where still on my face.
I had just started a job at K-Mart . . . as a cashier and I was mortified when a total stranger walked up and said, "Any man that does that isn't a real man . . leave the bastard." I just laughed and gave my bullshit story about having a big dog and her being a little too hyper .. . etc.
That's the whole truth RB. . . I am worried about the way he'll treat them (I never thought he'd hit me but I don't think he'd do it to them) but I just honestly wanted to tell SOMEONE that he hasn't always been the nicest to me!
