Ok . . . there have been numerous occassions that he has hit me (bruised the entire side of my face) . . . or he has choked me . . .thrown me on the floor . . etc. We had a dog once and she wouldn't go where he wanted her to and he threw her out the door and broke her leg. Yeah . . I MEAN HE'S ABUSIVE!!
I've never told anyone all of that . . and it's hard for me to do it now . . . but hell the truth has to come.
Now he's never done anything like that to Felina. Sometime I feel he's handled her too roughly . . and I said something to him about it . . . but I always assumed that was a difference of opinion.
Anyway . . . I don't want to use them against him. I certainly hope that's not why this is coming up. I know he yells at even Felina a lot . . . and it scares her. I mean I can spank her and she laughs at me . . . but him. . . it's different. She loves him . . . but there's also fear there. I certainly don't want him totally cut out of their lives. That's why I asked about visitation until he could prove to me and the courts (maybe) that he isn't going to be abusive towards them.
I could just Felina doing something as she gets older and it reminding him of me and him saying something to the affect of "You're just like your [censored] stupid mom . . " and bashing her. I would hate to have that happen. Maybe I am only looking at the bad side . . but . . .
