Alright . . .here's a little more from the MUCH to cluttered mind of Emily . . .
I feel like I live in the Land Of Em . . . I just need to find the stupid wizard!
Ok . . .
I have been stewing over RB's advice . . . still waiting to see if he'll check back in and answer my question.
I want to do what's best for my marriage.
But given some of these things:
* He said the affair was caused mainly by lack of contact with me (as we were living seperately and he felt lonely)
* When I went out (even though he pushed me to) with my friends he packed up all his stuff . . even though we were alright when I left.
* He's gone so much that we wouldn't have much contact anyways.
I worry that maybe the whole "no contact" thing would harm more than help.
I know what I want . . .he really doesn't . . if I shove him out of my life. I think he'll run to the OW . . . and try to forget all about me. It'll hurt him . . . but he'll refuse to EVER come back. As long as we both sort of hang he'll come back. But if I break it off . . . he won't be at fault . . .he'll stay gone.
