Honestly . . .

because I am terrified of being left all alone.

I do have plans for myself.
But I just don't think I'm ready to commit to a whole life without my H.

I figured since I fudged up so bad in my DBing this last time maybe it would help if I set down serious rules for myself for when I am interacting with him.

MY goals for myself are always crappy . . .
I have things I want to do

I.E. get a job (hopefully the one I'm applying for up to the school) . . get my license.
Eventually (like with next year tax return) get myself a car.
Things like that.
But I wouldn't know how to put together a list ALL for myself.
I am scared to death of a life ALL by myself . . .