Good morning sexy,silly,emotional,overthinking(like ME) EMILY
You are a sweet young lady who needs to stop worrying @ every little thing he does. You need to focus on real lasting changes for you!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Only you can turn this around

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You always say it will get better, you always say you'll change . . . and it never does and neither do you."




It can get better and it will get better but the only way is for you to stop acting like a jealous green monster for one , like you have nothing else to do but fret over his every move and whereabouts. DO NOT ,DO NOT MISUNDERSTAND ME..........


I AM NOT CONDONING ANYTHING KEVIN DOES,,,what I really want you to see like Ive told you many times before this type of bullshit behavior while he probably deserves to get it plus a couple good ass whoopings will take you nowhere,,, beleieve me sweetie ,Ive been there done that.





Stop Immediately what you have been doing and be better, I am not asking you to totally change Emily just change the way you constantly react to KEVIN. No he's not perfect honey, but if you are choosing to keep him around stop crucifying him. Let him crucify himself. Please.
When you get excited about stuff(SHI(ZN)IT) he does he doesnt have to own it.
Do you understand???

Then you can feel it all for him and it makes what he may or may not be doing ...ok.
Trust me beyond a shadow of a doubt,, I am going thru the same garbage,, OW just called my H last night, you know what ?
I stayed calm. She called around ( 9pm) guess what he didnt answer,, he didnt leave the room to call her ,Him and I were laying in bed watching Tv.We went to bed.

Sure I was upset , but you know what I love that she doesn't own me. I am better than that and better than her for that matter she ---is -- pursuing a married man and hes in bed with me,, he comes home to me and he Ml to me,, yeah its not perfect but you know what why let her ruin any time I have with him?
In the past believe you me Em, I would have blown a fuse,, I am getting a little peeved just relaying the story to you but you know what,, I can go to bed at night and look at myself in the mirror and know I am a beautiful worthy woman.
Who any man ( well a few ) would trip over hemselves just to take me out to eat,, and I have 5 kids Emily,,, 17, 14, 9,8,6. And even if I didnt get a dinner date,, I am still awesome. Ive been thru enough to allow myself to love myself.

Just b/c I have kids doesnt mean Im used goods or noone would ever find me attractive.

Also another OW, example and why you have to let the idea that she even matters go,,
I snooped ( I know I am setting a really bad example for you ) ,hey being honest, Anyway on Sunday,my H went out for a couple of beers and guess what she had sent him a text "I miss you very much."

I saw this last night,, well let me explain, No I dont know if he texted her back ( I doubt it),, or called her.
What I do know is he called ME several times from the bar, he couldnt get thru to me, when I finally answered he was soooooooooooooooooooooooo happy to talk to me. I FEEL EVEN BETTER THAT SHE SENT HIM A TEXT HE WAS AWAY FROM HOME COULDVE BLOWN UP HER PHONE TO TALK ////INSTEAD WAS CALLING ME.
hed only been gone @ an hour and a half.

my point is if you change I will not say its a magic pill but you will feel soooooooooooooooooooooooooo
in control, you will feel calmer,, add any emotion you want you'll just feel good damnit.

You can do this.
Stop being so worried
jealous
upset
angry
pissed
hurt
highly emotional
overanalyzing Kevin
etc. etc.
START (AND I MEAN NOW)
KNOWING YOUR BEAUTY
BEING STRONG
High self esteem
Inner beauty
self love
being calm
loving yourself
doing things that make you feel good
enjoying life
seeing who you can become
letting go of the past
forgiving yourself
loving without limits
being Emily

You can do this angel,, let go of the past ,bathe yourself in the love that only you can give yourself. Love yourself enough to put you first,, the rest will fall into place.
I promise.
Be the best damn woman you can be , be worthy of behaving in a manner you are proud of,, stop going down cheeseless tunnels that will only make you more confused.
Stand up for what you believe and let all the past be in the past make peace with yourself and with Kevin..
You do not have to tell him about it just show him .
start being the strong beautiful WOMAN you are and dont look back..
Do it for yourself, start right now,, or I'll get over there to personally get your ass in line myself .
Please Emily start working on you and how you react to things , lets start there please. TODAY....

God bless you girl.
I am going to make myself a coffee.. I'll check on you later.
Roll up your sleeves princess and get to work.