I know that the past 5 or 6 posts here have been from me . . but I've had a lot to say today!
As I was surfing other threads . . . these words kept circling in my head. . .
"You always say it will get better, you always say you'll change . . . and it never does and neither do you."
My H said that to me.
I really was starting to change my thinking about the PA. Honestly I was . . .
then the mark . . . I know I keep coming back to that! I was going to take his word at face value.
I met him at the door with a HUGE hug . . . and then we walked outside for a smoke together and BAM there was the mark.
It ruined our whole weekend.
Maybe our feeble R that might have lead back to a healthy M.
Aye!!!
Those words keep circling in my head . .
WHAT DO I DO TO SHOW HIM THAT I WILL AND CAN BE DIFFERENT.
I do not plan to talk about the OW anymore . . NEVER . . . I don't want her in our R.
HOW DO I SHOW HIM MY ACTION if he will not be around me?
*I know I have to act in order for him to see it . . . but if he's not around and we aren't in contact.
How can I prove myself to him?
Goodnight all . . .hopefully tomorrow when I come . . I'll have some sound advice to slap me in the eye and get me motivated and moving in the right direction.
