My brain is starting to go into fight or flight mode. I am trying to remain objective and look at it from a good angle. He hasn't said that he definately wants to D me. That's positive spin. This weekend I really did have a different mentality and then he had that mark . . . that caused an upset. Then yesterday he was miserable ALL DAY LONG.
I am worried about the decision he'll make but I've come to terms with the fact that I change it if he decides he wants to leave me.
I just hate being in limbo and wondering when the bomb will drop or the fog will lift.
I called and got an application to work up at the highschool in town. I don't know if I'll be able to get the position but I thought I might as well try. Wish me luck . . could that be a GAL step sneaking up on me?!?!?!?!?
I can feel the unease and panic slowly rising and knotting up my stomach. I'm unsure what to do. Any advice??
