I've been thinking about my sitch, not in that panicked way . . but for some reason in a calm objective manner. Woah . . that's a shocker!!
Anyway . . So he took his stuff, we're seperated again. I just have to step back give him his "time" and see where it goes.
I'll be honest I don't want to be 21 divorced with two kids. . . but I can't stop it if it's going to happen. I can only work my way through it.
I just wish I knew if he was/is still seeing the OW and that's what this is all about.
I think that the mark on his neck really was from rough-housing not from biting/sucking. IT was HUGE . . . took up the whole front and most of the side. So unless she's an alien with an unhinging jaw . . .
I am detaching as much as I can. I like our relationship while he is out on the road . . . we have nice convo and such . . . but geesh when he comes "home" all hell breaks loose. I think things moved way to fast. Maybe him reseperating us is the best thing. He said he did it because "it'd feel less stressful if he didn't live here". Which I think is a commitment issue . . I think he wants to stay but is scared to commit to a lifetime of ANYTHING.
Maybe I'm really overthinking . . . but at least it's not an upset horrible feeling like it gets sometimes.
