I know that I need to settle my mind. . . I slept horribly last night. My H called me and he's about 2.5 hours away. I am NERVIOUS as all get out! I just don't want to make things worse. . . I was looking forward to having three weeks away from him. I think he was picking up on that feeling, I didn't mean for him to. But yesterday when he was all excited and telling me he was going to be home today . . . I just couldn't make myself get as excited as he was. I hate him spending time down in that area, where the OW lives.
He said he wants us to move because then it would be like a "fresh start". We could get away from everyone and everything and start over. Yeah . . . I guess. I am just worried about striking that far out on my own with nothing to my name. I know that as bj I need to do all of those things. . . and plan to. But it will take me a LONG time to save up enough money to even buy a beater of a car. So . . I guess maybe he'll have to wait.
I guess we will see how things go. I need to put on my happy face. . . but I am having problems. I'm trying. . . 2 hours left. I'll be around.
