Thanks GH and Mamabear! I see that my last post locked out! Hopefully this one will only show more progress . . in me if in nothing else.
Well the trip today was pleasant enough. I found out nothing about my daughters condition. They put her on antibotics as a "precautionary measure" . . . and scheduled an ultrasound and another meet and greet with doctor on August 4th.
The trip down and back is about 4 hours each way . . . LONG when you have be there at 8 am. I am exhausted and frustraighted that I still don't know if she'll be alright or if she'll require surgery!!!!
It was hard trip as we went down the same route my H and I used to travel ALL THE TIME! We went down to the area he's been living in for the past 6 months and the area that he and I had lived in and out of. He was certainly second on my mind but I couldn't help feeling stabs of pain when I saw a place that he and I had went frequently or that just for some stupid reason reminded me of him. My mind equates places/sounds/and smells to people and the memories of them. Maybe everyone is like that, I don't think my H is though.
ANYWAY . . . well I am no less worried about my daughter, but for now there is nothing I can do except pray that she will be fine.
I agree totally with you Mamabear . . .I could live without my H . . . but if anything happened to one of my kids I would just about die! I cry just to think that something could be wrong with her still . . . .I just try to keep it from my mind because ultimately I can't fix it and it will get taken care of. I need to just enjoy the time I have . . . and not fret over it.
Wouldn't it be great if I could apply this thinking to my marriage?!?!? There has to be away. But Kiya isn't doing this to hurt and I just feel that what he did (the affair) was done to hurt me. Kiya's sitch is TOTALLY out of our hands . . . and he could've prevented what he did. I see the problem . . . now to find the answer.
