muddle thanks for stopping by. i would love to talk to my w about these feelings i am having, but she has totally swept this under the rug, does not want to talk about it. she is home and thats what really matters. to her that is enough, she has comented many times how much nicer our r is, all my changes i have made. and you know what, she has not made any changes, none. she is still the same, i guess to her i was all the problem, and i fixed myself so now everything is ok. i still feel like i am walking on egg shells, witch i hate very much, but i dont know how to handle any of this. i keep going on with as if to everything, with the hopes it will take care of itself. i guess time will tell.
