Shippd, good to hear from you, and glad to hear things are going well. I think your state of mind is normal - in fact I have read some experts think it's unhealthy ever to trust your spouse 100%. Think of it this way, it prevents complacency and you will likely be more aware of things you can do to make your relationship better and prevent this from ever happening again. Your semi-obsessive thoughts are normal too. You will eventually get over it if you choose to. You can stop thinking about it by either stopping yourself or forcing yourself to think of something else when these thoughts start. Include your W in it and ask her for her support in your overcoming this.
You're an inspiration to us all!
“No problem can be solved from the same level of consciousness that created it. ” – Albert Einstein
