i do soooooo much understand that now. the one thing my w told me a few weeks back that stands in my mind (a wow moment) is that i have put her up on a pedistal and its hard to live up to my expections. i did not know i did that until she called me on it, since then i am working on not doing that too her. i also know she might change her mind today, but i am not expecting much this time, yea i want to REALLY start moving to total recencile, but i also know that will take time. so yes i feel good, but i will allow this time to heal and go from there. i will just remind myself that from time to time.
