Well, what a difference a week makes? i think i can say that this weekend had it all and i think (you guys can confirm for me) that I stood my ground for a change....
The weekend followed the same routine as the week, which actually made it fun and pleasureable. problem was last night, which to me was when the real hiccup came. to keep this short: kids went up, W and I were watchin TV when we started to fool around. i was thinking, this is good until because for once it just seemed right. Then i realized W was more interested in watching the end of the show more then me. it was devestating to me because she was allowing me to do some of the things that i couldnt do for so long, yet it did nothing for her (you could tell since she was glued to the tube); so i stopped - cold turkey, just stopped (that was so damn hard)
she called me on it. why did you stop? i told her that i could not, would not be a part of any intimacy where there was no interest from the other end. W told me she wanted to catch the end of the show. i said, you knew things were progressing, you allowed it, even commented on what i was doing (and how much you were enjoying it), then proceeded to allow me to progress further. Then you got preoccupied with something else (the tv), so I obviously wasnt doing something right. so i stopped, i am done.
you can tell that she got annoyed, but that was it for me. i was happy that i stood my ground on this one. a few minutes later i started the conversation to figure out what the deal was... it was obvious to me she realized where i was coming from because she made it clear where her attention was devoted once i started up the conversation.
I dont know.. to me, the weekend had it all, but i would have had to rate it as one of the better ones because of where all of this ended.
