Cobra: of course the lack of sex does all that, but its not so much the lack of it as much as it is the lack of quality. In the earlier part of the relationship, it was completely the opposite.
i wouldnt say i fear the consequences personally. i have become numb to it really. i have accepted that if this M fails, i will get over it and move on. My fear is more for the kids right now more then anything else.
my frustrations, which i really havent stated are this: i am always the one helping others (friends, family, coworkers, etc). the very nature of my job requires me to be the helper; however, when it is my turned to be helped, or accommodated or anything -- i get squat. nothing, zilcho, nada. that is my frustration - especially when you look at what i ask for (its not much, i am really that simple of a person).
when we first met, there was no mothering complex or any of that. i saw her as a stable, grown woman which i have always found more attractive because, well, i was tired of all the head games that the younger woman would play (mid to early 20's women). i always viewed the older women as straight forward, telling you how it is, what they want, etc. thats how we were, it was truly good. problem w/ early on, as i said before, frequency was a huge issue --but all that i complain about now in not getting -- i was getting.
the only thing scaring me right now is having to live the rest of my life deprived of things i want to experience w/ the woman i love. i fear that it will drive me to do something stupid. again, i am man - it would only be a matter of time.... i am trying my damndest
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of course i am ready to go postal. hell, i am ready to go postal at any moment for any reason in normal life
as far as wanting to apply it all.... i understand how it works - but that is also a crux of my issue. i really do have NO patience. i want what i want, when i want it - hehe - i know, poor attitude and approach... i am working on that.
the first part of my trek was hard - actually the first 5wks were the worst. Every morning i woke up feeling like i was in some kinda car wreck, or run over by a mac truck or something that nasty. i just about quit in wk6 when the results showed (seemed like overnight) - and once that happened... that was all she wrote - my attitude and approach became what it is today.
and on the other post you made.... i might agree with that the LD is more experienced and erotically inclined, but i will say this. if my W (the LD) is that inclined and what have you -- PLEASE, OH PRETTY PLEASE W/ CHERRIES whereever you can fit them and will allow me to...... oopsie - got carried away there! -- CAN YOU SHOW ME?
