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I feel so sorry for you, honey. When you ask for help, you get it here, and in SPADES.

First, let me say that most people who show up here are about two seconds from going postal. That, in and of itself, is part of the problem. Let me give you a bit of advice when dealing with the boards, and any well-meaning advice that comes your way.

First and foremost, it is going to overwelm you because you ARE ready to go postal on someone, especially when you are new here. Second, you start 'getting it' almost immediately, because folks around here don't pull punches. You'll want to run out and apply it all and expect immediate results. It doesn't work that way. Third, when the advice you get here, and then apply it, doesn't immediately work, you are going to want to take everyone's head off for it for giving you lame advice.

But. You are one up on most people who have come here. You have taken on and overcome something you wanted to alter, very badly. Your body.

Now... when you started on your trek... was it hard? Did it piss you off not to get immediate results? Did you stick with it anyway? Yes. And eventually, slowly, gradually, you began to see results... which then became their own reward.

Slow down. Read the posts here in chunks. Go away, think about them... reread them and YOUR OWN. Don't worry, we'll tell you when you miss a que, when you could have handled a stich differently. WE are your barometer. And you'll listen and you'll soak it up like a [censored] sponge... and gradually... it'll all sink in... and you'll start working on your own instict. Heck, GEL told darn near everyone here to take a leap and did what she needed to do when she needed to do it. But. She had faith in herself and what she knew. You don't. Not yet. But I would bet you a dollar you could tell me how to get my body in shape no time flat, eh?

Learn the lingo. Learn the language. Give yourself a break and TIME. It'll come.

Corri