i have thought about that question alot and quite frankly, i dont know. i mean, how can i act? can i accept it? if i have to accept it with the way things are right now -- sure i can; will i be happy during the entire time i know i cant have what i want? you can bet i wont be - not in the least because apart of me will me MIA (missing in action) - dead.
i will begin working on some changes, but i refuse to change to the point where i lose touch and sense of me and my wants (which is what i feel like will happen). and if i dont chnge all that much, i just see it being this viscious cycle
