ok - busy night and morning.... but in a nutshell to answer the most recent responses: I HAVE expressed what I wanted, what I liked.... I tried various methods/approaches. I tried the ignore and plow method... I have tried every scenario under the sun. I have talked to her, and talk to her, and wrote to her.... I have talked to female friends to get their viewpoint (as I am doing here) and they are at a loss - I am at a loss. I have literally tried it all (except reading peace between the sheets - i know, i need to order - wasnt at book store last night).
as far as me finding something that I would find repulsive -- well, i am still trying to find that one thing. i am pretty open... so I cant even apply this to my situation and say, ahh - thats the magic line to at least understand whats happening.
yes, i need to stop personalizing the rejection as it really has nothing to do w/ me or my performance. the fact of the matter though, is that i personalize it because it hurts, it sucks and its been going on for some time.
i am with someone i love dearly and would do anything and everything for, yet, i dont sense the same devotion - its "i will only go so far and you will just need to accept that." well, news flash: i cant. no, maybe can't, but i find it very unacceptable, especially if you really do love someone. (yes, i realize i opened up again to be pounded pretty good - thats me Neanderthal, fits me good)
i am bitter and have been for 2 days now... sorry.
