So today was a drastic change from the last few months... the W woke me up w/ interesting words - nice kisses, and that peaked my interest. (This could be because i completely shut it down for the last couple of days. A talk ensued about that and I just explained how I was just taking a step back and acting towards you, the way I feel you act towards me. I am learning to accept what I have, what I know i cant have, etc. That was really the length of the conversation, at which point the W decided it was time to call it a night.) Anyways, the way she woke me up you would think is a good thing, yet somehow I am not getting my hopes up. Why? because i have seen this play out too many times before where there is good/great dialogue throughout the morning/day, but no follow-thru when it counts.
So what does one do to continue and nurture the dialogue? to make it continue on throughout? to make the follow-thru happen? I have tried on numerous occassions to explain that this is the best feeling, that this was all I was looking for, etc, yet it doesnt seem to sink in.....
This is where ranting starts, so I am stopping... just thought I would share this frustration. It is a way to help me sort all of this out....
