What a day this turned out to be - work was just drowning me! Anyways, to respond to every one...
Cobra: Yes, I think self esteem for the W is an issue, or it can be from time to time (she does make that known). Throughout the process of me reshaping myself, there were always offering to join and help out in other ways yet she only got involved with what she wanted. If she decided not to assist i wouldnt have been bothered too much because i did it on my own time when it would not affect our lives or our routine. If things were different, I might have a different viewpoint... but all my past experiences have shaped me who i am today. To take a bit further on your comments: if she was attracting other guys, or got some other things done - right now, it sounds intriguing. the trust is there, so I feel that would add some spice and i would not be bothered by it. if anything, it would help me maintain a certain level working out - i would be open to it right now.
Honeypot: you made some good points and that made sense. After reading that I can say, yes, i am giving off the vibe that i love the sex more then her.... eventhough that is not the case.
like i said, i have some reading to do
I do appreciate all the feedback. I know this will not be easy - matter of fact will probably be one of the hardest things I will have to go thru.... but I feel that I am traveling the smart road and not quitting
