This may sound off-topic, but a bit more background with how all this came about: the W did ask what has brought this on all of a sudden and i can reflect back and see where I started down this path of unhappiness: when I got my butt in the best shape of my life (and have not turned back). By going thru the process of rebuilding my physical self, I instilled a sense of confidence, accomplishment, intensity, focus, etc. that has had an impact on every area of my life. for better or worse, that is open to debate
I did include the W, and the W was a part of the process. She wanted to help w/ the small things like tanning, the meals, etc... and because i felt unbelieveable towards myself and how we did work together as a team I felt the need to want to share more w/ the W. Unfortunately I wanted to share so much more physically and well, she didn't - thats how it came across
Now, I have not read that book but did see what you wrote on the other messages and it does make perfect sense. I am just trying to figure out how in the blue H-E-Double Hockey sticks I can get past this dilemma.
Things are boring for me because I am trying, I am wanting, and I am not getting the same mojo (not the person, just the "thing") back that I feel I am putting forth. that is all i find frustating. I know, a bit petty - but that is it.
i am a simple person that really does not ask for much... and if she does have any type of hangups, I honestly dont know what they are. i continually ask, i continually try to nurture things along, yet i am always getting things are great - dont want them any other way.
