NNP - a closet kid rock fan! Who would have thought! I don't particularly care for him, but if I had to pick one song I liked, it would be Picture. Yeah, more parallels to my life.

Anyway - today, I'm getting the hell out of here!! I don't care where I go, probably last minute back to school shopping for the kids, but I'm outta here. Leaving SO with the kids and don't plan on coming back until 8 PM (when the race starts!) That is, unless I find somewhere else to watch it! LOL

Ellie, thanks for your input. I plan on calling the courthouse again Tuesday, just to verify the notes that I took. Yes, I'm kind of anal that way - took notes while talking to them.

SO got home around 8 last night from work, earlier than I had anticipated. Him & his friend worked in the garage until 11 or so. I had actually gone to bed, but he came in and woke me. Clearly expressing his surprise that "I wasn't up waiting for him."

He mentioned something about "He has to meet with those people Tuesday". My response, "MmmmHmmm." Ok, so maybe *I* can get out of it. I don't want to go. I think I've decided to discuss this further with him; just not sure when. I'm simply not comfortable with the lack of $$$. No job, etc.

On the personal level - well, I don't know what would be best. I know when he had his apartment, we seemed closer. But, he seems to go through that whole "when he's with me he wants to be with OW; when with OW wants to be with me" thing. You know - wanting what you don't have. I think my greatest fear is staying here and making it worse between us. Not for anything I do or don't do, but rather that *I* will be perceived as the last thing standing between Romeo & Juliet's "in love" happiness. (boy, I wish they had a thowing up smiley face that I could insert here - Lol) Know what I mean?

He also initiated ML last night. Yeah, I did. For good or bad, who knows. To me, it signifies his continued confusion. Maybe not the best reason in the world to do it, but, WTH. Maybe not even accurate, maybe I'm just a warm body, who knows. I've given up trying to figure it out.