Thanks, NNP.

The rental is co-broked thru 2 real estate companies. So, calling the listing agent is a no-no. Doesn't help that our agent is on vacation, however, she knows we're waiting to hear.

Today's festivities brought SO coming home with lunch; checking the caller ID and asking why the agent from the other house called here. I told her she called about a rental that may be coming available and asked him where the town was, because I didn't know. He asked if I wanted to move there because "that's where my boyfriend is?". WTH? Ah, yes, I mention I may go out with friends this weekend and all of a sudden I am "spitefully" going out with other guys. Once again, I reiterated I still had no concrete plans for the weekend yet.

A little bit later he asked me again about jobs, working, having enough money. Most of my answers were "I don't know." He asked why all of a sudden now are you going to get your license again? And how is that going to work with the kids when you could never get it to work before?" Again, I said "I don't know yet." He responds with: "Lately there's been so many 'I don't know' answers. Why? " (I don't think I have it exactly the way he said it, because I got out of it that HE has "I don't know" answers as well and wasn't happy with either of us answering that way. Although, WTH knows, maybe I'm wrong, but that's how I took it.) I said, I don't have all the answers, I don't even want to have all the answers." Then I left him to nap.

When he got up, he came and sat with me & the girls at dinner....and it seemed like every few minutes he would ask me what was wrong. I think because I've been acting so devil-may-care lately (finally); I wasn't doing anything other than being happy and upbeat with the kids. He then questioned again - if the rental is going to be OK; do I want to move out or not; and what I'm thinking. I acted blase; never directly answered anything, then he says "we're going to have to have a serious discussion one of these nights with all bullsh!t aside." I said "all right."

Yeah, I'll say it - inside I was thinking YOU are the one with the bullsh!t problem - not me! And these days you don't know the facts from the fiction that you've told - but, yes, yes - I kept that all to myself!

One day at a time....