WOW, more than 2 weeks since I've been on here. Hope everyone is doing well...I have to spend some time catching up.
Recap of "events":
Big blowup Sunday, 8/6 - complete with OW calling, demanding to speak to me & telling me she doesn't have "a problem" with me; me making SO leave the house that night - sheer craziness - very ugly scene
Monday 8/7 - Another blowup - OW calling again, me packing up the kids and leaving for sisters one day early.
That week, SO says he found a 3 BR duplex - is going to look at it for me - it's a couple hundred more than what I would feel comfortable with on rent; he says the place is great but it's out of D7's school district - begs me to tell him what to do. I refuse - tell him to do whatever he wants. If he thinks it's suitable for us, then take it; if not, pass. He asks me "can you come back home tonight". I refuse.
I eventually come back...3 days after I originally planned; timing it so that we arrived when I knew he had to leave for a wedding. He was all over me; no words of missing me or anything, just trying to get me into bed. Denied.
During the next week, I keep looking in papers; not finding anything. On the 15th, lo & behold a place in our current town pops up. It's expensive, but not as much as the other one. We look at it. It's fabulous - nicer than our own home...lol. I tell him it is still a little more expensive than I'm comfortable with (his reply - then you can just move back here!!!). So far, I've told him to move forward with the paperwork, and he hasn't. I see the rental app sitting downstairs. Shrug.
Yesterday, I found a place back in our hometown. Made an appointment, told him to watch the 2 younger girls and went to look at it. Left a deposit. There is another person with a deposit on it as well; and the house is also for sale. Which has me very uncomfortable. But, I don't feel like I have much choice.
I've also been on two job interviews - both have actually been offered to me. They are around here where I currently live - so far, I've not done anything. I have a little time to make a decision, and quite frankly - neither one of them pays enough for me to make it on my own, so I don't know what to do.
Oh, and, more drama. THE icing on the cake. I just found out that OW is now claiming pregnancy. Jeez, who would have thunk it (dripping sarcasm.)
This all becoming too much to handle. I feel like SO has really turned crazy. on one hand, I love him deeply. But, I'm starting to wonder what the hell is wrong with him. He literally is changing his mind; says one thing, then the polar opposite - in a split second. He goes from one extreme to the other. Tells me he knows he loves me; but then the next says he knows it's best for us to split up. Says he's not involved with OW; then sneaks out to call her.
He doesn't know I heard about the pregnancy thing; I'm keeping that to myself.
Anyway - have to go now. I know this update isn't too well written. I'm hoping SO works tomorrow night (he's been letting others handle his bar remotes for the last 2 weeks) so that I can have some time to myself and perhaps give a better update and also check up on others.
Sara, GH, RB; PARob; whitelight - hope you all are doing well. Oldtimer - if you're still around - hope life with Newcomer is going well! FYI - I think of your advice to me (in the past) very often!
