I am both very sad and very excited for you, as strange as that sounds. As usual, GH beats me to the punch and sums up my thoughts pretty well, but I want to say that you have given everything that you can and now you must move on to rebuilding your life. Obviously, you are not a failure and throughout this whole process I've always looked upon you as a very strong person (with a great sense of humor to boot!) who was grounded in reality. Although I don't post very often anymore, I do follow everyone's sitch, so please post updates as they become available. Take care of yourself and your wonderful children.
Rob
"Achieve success, but without vanity; Achieve success, but without aggression; Achieve success, but without gain; Achieve success, but without force." Lao Tzu
