Well, seeing these posts, I feel like such a failure. Short version - SO has asked me to move out. Insisted, quite frankly. And I've agreed. I'm too tired to fight anymore. My spirit is gone. My will is gone. I could have given a little more, if he was willing. But, he's not. So I can't give any more.
I feel worse this time around. Much worse for some reason. But, moving will be good. I can't stay here. I won't force myself where I'm not wanted. What should have been the happy place we raised our family has turned into a Fun House, complete with rooms of Illusions; tightropes; rollercoasters and the echoes of lies.
Moving will be the better choice for me & the girls. Starting over somewhere else without all the crap. We'll be close to family that can help me out (both his & mine); I've got friends there; we won't be so isolated - for a minute or two I can almost make myself look forward to it.
I thank you all for following along with me. I'm sorry I don't have a happier outcome. But everyone here are amazing people, helping others through the tough times when they themselves are going through similar things. I'm so glad I found this site...it's helped me learn so much.
I'll update my details as I know them. He'll probably have all the money for me that I requested within 2 weeks. School starts at the end of August where I'm going, so this is all going to happen pretty quickly. I hope so anyway. No use dragging it out any longer.
