This is the big, burning question in my mind. The biggest. Why is SO doing this? All he's said so far is it's the "right" thing to do? I want to ask - isn't there a part of you that loves me? And what feelings does he have yet for OW? Does he really want to be with her? And for some reason this is just the easier option? Why is he doing this?

Why can't I shake the feeling that he's not doing this because he wants to be with me?

This is what I'm struggling with the most.