Beyond frustrated... is this really worth it?

[cat03]

Hi Jen, thanks for replying, I was really feeling like dirt that day, guess I had to vent, it was one of those days when one just wants to throw in the towel, well, no one said it was going to be easy huh?
I'm being impatient, guess this is a new stage for me, for all of us here I think, some have our S's back or close to it, I shouldn't despair so fast *SIGH*

Guess I have to stop in the delusion that my H will go back to that puppy love we had when we first met, I forget that during the last years before he left it wasn't all hugs and kisses every 10min, so I am fooling myself waiting for all that.
Thanks for listening for my pity party, I think it is pretty close to that time of the month, so hormones are going wild here