I know that coffee is a ritual that Duchess, you, and I share w our spouses. I'll tell you a truth. I wasn't a coffee drinker before this whole mess got started. I absolutely have to stay away from soda (used to adicted to the stuff) and we stop at 7-11s as we travel. The coffee ritual was created and maintained.
How do I feel? Have you viewed "Lord of the Rings"? There's a part in there where the Lady of the Woods (I can't remember her name but she's an elf and wanted the power of the ring) resisted taking the ring.
She said "I am diminshed and shall go into the west. . ."
I feel diminished 1 year after the bomb.
Andy, I went from being emotionally withdrawn and low libido, due to both thyroid dysfunction and marital conflict, back to the height of libido and a desire to be so emotionally present. It coulda been a glorious recovery if my spouse had held onto himself and been there for me.
I'm not angry. Sage doesn't even know; he can't see past his own drama. Maybe soon he will tend to his health and address the possiblity of active depression and hormonal dysfunction.
I think of your wife and you. I admire how you pulled yourself out of depression (I know so little about it, forgive) and you are holding on to your committment to yourself and to your wife.
The stage is set, she just needs to open her eyes and heart and be wrapped in love again.
I'm hoping her test results w be the key to her regaining whatever it was she is missing.
I don't think she will ever feel diminished by the way her husband receives her medical recovery. I think one day you will hear a heartfelt thankyou from her, simply because you are willing to keep on keeping on.
