Oddly enough, I'm not scared, Rachael. I'm just feeling kinda down.

I lost a lot in this process. I lost the love and respect of my W (though she's never admitted it).

I've lost some of my feelings, too. The affection I had for my W isn't the same as it once was. If anything scares me, it's that.

I feel an intense sense of loss which I don't know if I can lose.

Andy