I'm sure this won't be any consolation, but maybe it will be useful to know that life does go on.
I have been divorced from my first wife for almost 10 years. Wow, hard to believe it's been that long. We have two kids that I see frequently and am in their lives actively. I can tell you that for years now I haven't seen my XW as someone I had interest in. The love dies. There comes a time that you don't even remember being in love at one point with this person. After getting divorced (she divorced me) I felt as you do now. It's hard to believe I felt that way. I've loved again, a better, more fulfilling love. It was more difficult to reach that point, but I feel it was worth it because it was a more informed, "eyes wide-open" type of love. And yes, unfortunately I've divorced again, but fortunately I'm back together with my 2nd XW. I love her and see me with her til death do us part, I know that it is possible to love again, and love deeply, even though right now it doesn't feel that way.
But you have to let go of your spouse. It is true that if it's meant to be that they'll come back. But that too will happen over time.
Me
In the end, it's not the years in your life that count. It's the life in your years. Abraham Lincoln
It is hard to fail, but it is worse never to have tried to succeed. Theodore Roosevelt
