Anyway, I've been feeling down lately--knowing that I need to let go of my past and move on. I just have no desire to date--and honestly when a man shows interest, I literally want to run screaming. I guess when the right one comes along, I won't feel that way....but I just wonder if I'll let the right one in. I feel broken. I am broken.
It takes time to get back into the dating scene, takes time to heal. After my D it took me a year until I even had anything to do with another woman. Just didn't feel like dating.
I would go out and do things with my friends, or by myself. But had no desire to date. Was happy being by myself and working on finding out who I really was. Trying to figure out what I wanted out of life and the type of person I would want to share that with.
After I got to the point of knowing who I was and what I was looking for I started to open up. I was happy with the type of person I was and confident in myself. Because lets face it, nobody will stick around very long if you don't have faith in yourself.
So what you say about "being here to rebuild yourself" is exactly what you need to do. Don't worry about finding or feeling that way about someone else. In time you will, but you can't dwell on that now. Work on the present and the future will unfold for you.
"Our life is what our thoughts make it."
Marcus Aurelius
