I have so far to go in being more positive, more grateful, more strong, more able to "as if", more humble, more quietly confident, mostly need to figure out how to be more wise! Gotta follow the results! Glad there are folks here who are fighting the good fight that I can learn from.
So happy for that "I love you" you got!!!! You have operated out of a lot of faith that things will get better guess I should do the same and buy the house. Sure do wish we could level out some. I must figure out how to do that and get it to happen in our marriage. Experiment, experiment!
I feel for you for the remaining pain and hope both of you find the key that turns it off!