Spoon I have not read your post at all. Your subject line caught my eye. I will read an get back to you. Right now, I want to say that your love for your children must exceed all. You may want to kill yourself, call your spouse, beg her to come home, none of that matters more than being the best, strongest, most upbeat parent that you can. please take care of you and paste a smile on your face. HUGS we are all here for you
