I am so very sorry that you are having to deal with this while you are deployed. It's hard enough when one is in the same proximity as their estranged spouse.
First, I want to thank you personally for the sacrifice you are making on my behalf and the behalf of all Americans. It is through the service of men and women like yourself that I can sleep in peace at night while you stand watch on the wall. Secondly, I want you to know that I am concerned for you because of your mention of suicide. I understand the pain and anguish you are in because I could have easily taken my own life too on a number of occasions during this ordeal. I want you to know that you can and will make it through this, regardless of the outcome. You are one of America's finest and if I can survive, you surely can. Please promise me that you will seek the counsel of your unit's chaplain or one of the docs before you do something drastic. We all want you to come home safe. You should want to come home safe to the people it means the most, Your Children. Above all else, think of them.
I have asked No Hill For A Swimmer, from the Surviving The Big D forumto drop in on you. He is a Navy Medic and chewed dirt with the Marines. He knows where you are coming from and can relate because he understands, probably better than anyone here, what you are up against and going through. Don't be afraid to drop in on his thread and introduce yourself. I know he would be more than willing to help you.
In alot of ways, this group of DB'ers is like the military, Spoon. We never leave a buddy behind. Welcome to our platoon. We've got your six.
I'll be back to check your OP. Keep your head down and stay safe.
