Listen to me. I have had someone I was very close to commit suicide. It is something I will never get over. I tell my children all the time how wonderful their uncle was and that they would have loved him. I know the pain his mother went through. We all went through hell after that. The guilt is awful. You think you should have known. You should have been able to do something. Please don't do that to your children. Your wife is not worth it. And yes, I can tell you that you can survive this. I did. My ex married the other woman. Yes the pain is the worst but you can survive it. Your children will not survive you killing yourself. If you love them DON'T DO IT!!!!!! I can tell you that your children WILL GET IT on their own. They will know who puts them first. They will not ever hate you. First of all you need to forgive yourself. My ex husband cheated on me years ago and then again a couple of years after that. He left the second time. He divorced me and told me about it after he did it. I forgave him and myself. I have the same unconditional love for him that I did when he was home with the children and myself. Even if he doesn't want it, it is always there. That is how our children and I survive. You teach your children by example. They will heal when they see you healing. I was true to myself and I was able to heal from all the lies and pain. If I did it, so can you. You have to put yourself first. Take care of you. Everyone on this board cares about you. We are all here to help each other. If you do searches on any of our stories you will see that we also thought we could not go on but here we are years later able to use that pain to help others. Thank you for all you are doing for our country. I think it is the lowest of the low for anyone to do this to someone who is serving their country away from home. Please take care of yourself. YOU DO MATTER!!!!
God Bless You, havefaith
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