We all (maybe just you and me) feel like life would be easier if we were dead. Well it doesn't work tht way - think of the burden you would be leaving your kids and wife. How many issues will they need to deal with if you really take that option.
I hope it was just desperation speaking.
I use to say stuff lke that because I felt pain and did not know how to ease the pain - and I was depressed for a long time - because life did not make sense. It doesw now though - and the only thing that changed was my way of thinking. I have taken the time during our seperation to work on me. I drink to self medicate - to take away the pain and I know I will stop this soon because the pain isn't there anymore just the addiction/habit.
Please read the words that are my signature and really think about them and think about them in your context.
You need to be strong, happy in yourself and by yourself. No one else is here to make you happy - just you
Take time to learn who you are. Socrates said to find yourself you need to think for yourself - think about it!
Read read read - learb from others - the key to happines is to let go of fear and walk toward what you want - and what you want IMHO is to be ahppy in yourself first and then perhaps to find an EMOTIONALLY MATURE relationship with another person who has taken time to work on themselves. To shed their childhood thinking and is able to think in a better, more loving, more confident way.
If your issue is negativity learn to get ZEN with life - it will be what it will be - the only thing that will change your life is to change yout reaction to what happens - see everything as negative and you will be negative and unhappy to be happy is not unrealistic thinking - it is taking the power that lies within you to be resilient.
Have fun, love life, live in the moment (if you don't know how learn to - you can do it - because I have learnt how to- don't fear the future know that whatever life throws at you you can handle because your new attitude will enable you to.
Good Luck - Love your kids, choose life (OK that was a bit corny lol)
God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change; (Life, the Universe, other people)
courage to change the things I can;(me, my attitudes, my behaviour, my reactions)
and wisdom to know the difference
