Spoon,

Damn. That is one heartbreaking tale....I can't tell you how to fix your marriage, but maybe others can.

All I can tell you is to fight, FIGHT!!! to have your kids in your life.

The best way is in a marriage. Fight for that at all costs. If that fails, you will know you tried. That in time will give you peace.

Spoon, I wish there were some words of wisdom I could give you to make it all better...I can't.

The game of life is hard to play.

Sorry buddy. I will be keeping up with you. You are NOT alone!