Help, i wanna kill myself

[I_Still_Love_Him]

Hey Spoon.....we do not know what your W is thinking. Don't try to analyze b/c that is what drove me nuts for 5 months. It is only in the last month that I stopped trying to analyze my H and I am feeling better. Don't get me wrong, I do still have some bad days and it is ok. You have to feel what you are feeling but then you need to pick yourself up. Don't call your W until you know you can talk w/o breaking down. Don't try to argue with her about what she wants. Just say something like, "I know how hurt you must be and I'm sorry that you are feeling this way". If you empathize with her, she can't argue with you. I know it is hard, believe me I know. This is still very fresh for you. Be the strong person that you are.
As for moving your kids to another country, I don't think she can take the kids away to another country so you should check into that before she tries to leave. Also, I hope your mother is not trying to talk her out of what she wants to do b/c that is no different than if it were coming from you.
As hard as it may be and believe me, we all know, use the techniques mentioned in DB or DR. Try not to backslide but if you do, it's okay but get yourself back on track asap. Believe me, I've learned the hard way but after 6 months, and not making the situation any better but doing what you are trying to do, I am going to follow the same advice everyone is trying to give you. Be strong and ask God to give you the strength to endure. We are here for you if you need to vent or ask for support. Remember, your kids need their daddy to be strong and happy when he see them again. We know you can do it.