Spoon. You are obviously a strong man. I've posted this a couple of times, and the people her are reinforcing it.
You can't beg. My OW begged and I RAN away. My wife did not and I RAN back. There obviously is something to this.
Please for the sake of you kids, listen to these people who have put their marriage back together.
When I had marital problems I used to think, "I will fix it."
Well I had no clue and f^cked up my marriage. Please listen to those who have experience.
I respect and honor what your are doing over there. I REALLY do, but you need a slap in the face.
If they were going to put their lives on the line they would ask you for advice. You're are fighting another battle in you marriage. This DB stuff works. LISTEN!!!
You have to quit thinking of your emotions and rely on others. If not your worst fear my come true. Let GO and trust these people.
If you think YOU have all the answers and do it YOUR way, you will lose. Sorry.