I was hoping you wouldn't be calling your W and begging her to stay. Can you set up a goal to NOT call her for one week? Then two? It seems like you take a few steps back when you talk to her. Do the unexpected! You can still keep in contact with the children via snail mail.
Can you get Divorce Remedy there? Or reread the book you have. It doesn't say to beg and plea, does it?
You have 40 days to transform into the person you want to be. Be happy with yourself first. Your W will then see the change!!!
