Im not doing so well, I called her yesterday to get her bank account information so I could set up her allotment and I talked to my daughter, who is 5. She told me she wanted hr mommy and daddy to stay together. I lost it, all I could think about was my family and I begged her to stay. I asked her if there was anything that would make her stay and she told me there was nothing in the world. She doesnt love me, doesnt care for me, and does not like me.
Just 2 weeks ago we were talking about having another child. And the only picture that I have in my head is getting home and seeing my whole family getting on a plane and leaving. She also said that she wanted to find a better job, so she might not go back to Missouri. I planned on getting as close to MO as I could so I could at least see my children on weekends and now she is taking that away also.
I get home in 40 days and one week after that they will be gone. I cant live without my family and I dearly love my wife. So I have 47 days to "Bust" this divorce or thats it.
Maybe, I an weak. But this pain that I feel is too much and the hurt that I feel is to much to bear. I know the mistakes that I have made in this marriage and I wish that I could turn back time, but I cant. I read all of your stories and I wish that I could have my own success story, but it seems hopeless. There is nothing that I or anyone else can do. 47 days that is all I have and Im just so scared because I know what I will do and....
Oh and by the way Matilda, the name is a joke a friend of mine set this account up for me when so I could play fantasy football online.
