Good job! The hardest thing is trying to treat spouse as just a friend!!!! Believe me, I know!!! It is good to come here and vent, discuss, think through how you will interact next. You don't need to wait until you talk to her. Is it possible to back off with the daily communication? Add a little mystery. Do the snail mail to your children. I know that is difficult, but it's a starting place. I am proud of you!