My nephew came back on emergency leave from Iraq (Marines)a week ago because his w emailed him that she has a BF and wants a D. He was just like you. Only wanting to fix things. But as soon as he landed, she took the plasma TV , a vehicle, and her personal things and moved in with OM.
Life is hard.
But he looked into his kids' faces. He saw the horror there. Who is more important? You? Her? No.
All these babies want and need is the certainty that there is one person on earth who loves them unconditionally. Can you guarantee that if you go? You should make certain of that for them.
You should make it your mission that they will be taken care of. They deserve that from you. If you were to take your life, they would always know that you took the easy way out. It would not make you their hero.
