Spoon Forgive me for not researching your sitch and give specific advice. If you are in a combat zone or a job where mistakes can kill I offer this advice.
You got a box (you job) make it the shiniest box you can. That is priority 1. When the thoughts of the M invade the box banish them. They will come back with a vengence on your free time.
When I had the free time I read lots. Religious, medical manuals, ect. I exercised lots. I kept quiet or just listened to others since my life was an example of what AmyC says 'IT's ABOUT ME'
The best thing to do is pray, then read, then give out above your duties for your job. Idleness is not a good thing outside of sleeping to renew.
There is a lot of crackpot ideas out there so question everything and look at it's history. 'You'll know them by their fruit'.
Sorry I cannot be more specific. I went thru a bad deployment and afterwards thus giving what I had to do to survive. BTW Survival is very important.
"All I want is a weeks pay for a day's work" Steve Martin
