No matter how bad it gets, tomorrow is another day. I know and can relate to all the pain you are going through. Please believe me when I say that it will get better. Time is always on your side and if you give it a chance you will be stronger and a better person for it even though you don't really believe that now.
Your wife saw something in you at one time that that made her fall in love with you. Is that person still there? I believe that person is and I also believe that the person is someone whose children already love and will continue to love for a lifetime. I know that I have come to love my dad more and more as time goes by.
You have so much experience and wisdom that you need to pass along to your children. Wisdom that as they grow older they will learn to appreciate more than anything in the world. Don't deny them that!
I know that You feel like everything is all black and white. Let me tell you that the world is made up of mostly grey. I guess what I'm saying is, you were a happy independent person before you met your wife. Granted, you don't want to be that now. But, you can and will be that way in time. Take it slow and if be there at least for your kids. You don't want to pass up on a chance to be a hero to some of the most important people in your life.
"Our life is what our thoughts make it."
Marcus Aurelius
