Went to work today and thought everything was gonna be alright, but I started thinking about our conversation last night. I called herr intending to talk about money and the kids and she ended up telling me that this was the last time to talk to her. That she wasnt gonna answer the phone when I called and if I needed to get ahold of her for anything it better be important and maybe she would reply.
God, why did this have to happen. Im just so dumb and I read all of the stories of people wo still get to talk to their spouse. My situation seems hopeless and she is such a beautiful, smart woman that Im sure that she will be dating in no time. I want to try and call her right now.
I punched a wall until my knuckels bled the other day because I am so mad at myself. It serves as a reminder to me whenever I feel the paini in my hand not to try and call her. Im trying to give her space, time, and distance. Is there anyone out there has been through as what seems as hopeless situation ass this and made it through to be with their loved one?
