Spoonhound I'm an OIFII vet who got a Dear John while stomping the desert 40 west of Ramadi. Returning I begged for mercy and got justice. Was emotionally abusive also when I had a chance years ago.
Life sucks when you are paying the price of misdeeds. I know this well. I would recommend the book 'Purpose filled Life'. Also any info on controlling behaviors. Not to be a wimp but the learn to being a partner.
When you have life you have value. You signed the contract to keep our butts safe and that is value. We look at it as a job but civillians look at it with thanks and some awe. More so in non military towns. Even after the recent news in Iraq of abuse (I question a lot of that) there is no public outcry like Vietnam. Your efforts are appreciated.
Any attempt to end ones life is an extreemly selfish act where your Kids will pay for it for the rest of their lives.
Do a 180 on any self serving defeatist behavior, (takes a while and not is easy but worth it) and put others ahead of your immediate feelings no matter how dark they are. Long term it will pay off.
Best Wishes
"All I want is a weeks pay for a day's work" Steve Martin
