I can be a bit dense sometimes, Frank, I hate to admit, but what exactly does that mean? For me, for her, for both of us? Sorry.
More journaling: 7/20/06 My W asked me earlier tonight if she could come over and see the kids (my night) because she didn't see them last night (plans apparently), tonight, or tomorrow night (her Bunco night). Also, she has been working during the day to make her D plans a possibility, as she is dead set against making her M work.
Anyway, she came over and the evening was fine. We enjoyed the kids together. She commented on a clock I purchased for my place again, about how much she really liked it. I told her, you probably didn't know this about me but I actually have VERY good taste. She responded, I know. She also comented on a picture that a Thomas Kinkaide picture which she allowed me to take was quite nice and she may want it back. I simply told her, nope, it's going in my dining room.
As the evening went on, my D5 began to misbehave b/c she was tired and didn't get to bed on time (mommy came over tonight). As I was disciplining my child, my W was undermining me and I simply asked her to NOT undermine me in front of our children. I assured her that I would always listen to her, but not when I was in the middle of dealing with a situation and certainly NOT in view of our children. She relented and I resolved the situation with our D5 firmly and lovingly.
My W then tells me about our D5's babysitter and the babysitter's family and my W'S concerns. W and I didn't get to finish the convo b/c D5 wa still up. Then, my W needed to leave all of a sudden. I simply said, "Later."
After she left, I called to tell her that we didn't resolve how to deal with the serious issue we discussed earlier. My W acted like she had NO idea what unresolved issue I was talking about from earlier. I asked her how many important unresolved issues we had discussed earlier and she admitted only one.
I believe she is in my life at this point to teach me to exercise grace and patience. She often seems to get lost in what I deem a logical sequence of thoughts. Perhaps it's me. I don't know. I know that I don't have s similar problem with anyone else that I speak with on a daily basis and I talk for a living. Hmmm....
Regardless, I told her during that last conversation that we didn't resolve how we were going to proceed with dealing with our babysitter and her family. I told her, we need to discuss and decide on a plan, but the ball is in your (her) court and if I don't hear from you (her), then I will assume that you don't want to do anything, OK? She tells me that we need to talk about this and I again told her to let me know when she is available to discuss the issue. She said she would, we'll see. My bet is that she won't.
I am settling into my home and getting to feel "at home" and more comfortable here. I collected all of my belongiings from my sisters house and put it all in my new place with a "shoehorn", as I like to say. I have done my grocery shopping, household shopping, children stuff shopping, made meals, etc. You know, making it my actual home. It's a nice feeling to have a place to lay my hat down.
I had my 3rd interview, this time with the director of marketing. The inteview went well. I'll know next TH or before. We'll see. Additionally, the two prevous jobs I turned dow have both been in contact with me about working for them. Another miracle. I would still love for oe more miracle though.
Thanks for listening. Too much about her and not enough about me, I know.
Sorry.
