Sitting in my new place and feeling really alone and down. The reality of my sitch hit me hard the last 3 days. Setting up a new home. Shopping for all new stuff w/o asking if she liked whatever I was considering buying. Strange and sad. I'll be OK though.
I have come to the conclusion that, regardless, I will be fine. I love my W and I very much want our M to work, but if she won't allow that to happen, I know I'll be fine with her decision. Sad, but OK.
I am getting stronger everyday. Dealing with the sadness is becoming more comfortable and familiar. I am becoming stronger and more confident that the Lord will help me to become the man that he always intended me to be and that my life will be more happy, more loving, and more secure going forward. It'll be different...but we'll all be OK.
Job news. I have another interview with the company I mentioned before. This time with the director of marketing. We'll see. Think positive thoughts for me on Wed at 8:00 AM PST.
Gotta run, will journal more on Sunday evening. I am feeling much more secure with me regardless of my W's ultimast decision regarding going all the way thru with the D. Thank you all for your help, encouragement, direction and the occasional much needed dose o freality and clarity.
I am becoming stronger and more confident that the Lord will help me to become the man that he always intended me to be and that my life will be more happy, more loving, and more secure going forward. It'll be different...but we'll all be OK.